Now for stage 2.
My surgery is next Tuesday. I thought I'd be cool with it but as it turns out...I'm freaking out a little bit. I was going to go with just a lumpectomy, but I have a feeling that I will worry that the cancer is still there. So I'm going with the mastectomy. I never thought I'd be one to get breast cancer and have to be dealing with this. One never does though.
I went for Reiki today. I'm so lucky to have someone who has been through cancer, and who understands the feelings I'm having, able to help me cope with my fears. As a result, I'm feeling calmer than I did yesterday. I can breathe.
I can't even offer any platitudes to others going through cancer. It is a scary time.
This time next year I will look back and go "wow, I never thought I'd get through that but here I am."
I hope that I can one day offer comfort to someone else who is walking the same path.
I flow with life.
